Santa magic

 I really hope you still believe in Santa magic. Your mother and I were just talking about taking the two of you to see Santa in the mall again this year. I'm afraid it's the last year you will "believe" in Santa. I think it's important for you to have magic in your childhood, because you can remember that and not be so serious all the time as an adult. Others see it as lying, but obviously we don't see it that way. At any rate, I hope you have a wonderful time if we get to go. :)

I really wish I could stop time and contemplate these entries for days. They deserve that level of attention and I always feel guilty when I know I'm not keeping up on them. Alas, such is life.

You have grown quite tall. It's crazy because I haven't even accepted that you aren't 2-4 anymore. It was only 5 years ago. That's an eternity, and nothing. I would say that I wish I (or you) could make you grow at the rate we wanted, but would we ever choose to progress in the way that it happens? I'm proud of you and I love you and I try to repeat that. Some children never hear it, and that's a shame. A damn shame. But in my eyes, you are a million times more special than a typical child and deserve to hear it ever more.

As usual, you are interested in the mechanics of things, survival techniques, science, and making things work in special ways. We just signed up for MEL science (it's for both of you!) as I've been wanting to do it for a long time. You always wait for the "right" time. That moment when "finances aren't a concern". It's just not going to happen. Sometimes you gotta make your present, damn the consequences.

You'll notice I'm talking in a more adult tone, probably. It's not because you still aren't my little boy who I love and adore. But I also acknowledge that you are over halfway to 18, and you are quickly maturing. One thing is for sure, you have a big heart, and I hope you realize how valuable that is. There are groups, organizations, gangs, sociopaths, and all manner of ill-contented people out there that seem to make it their life mission to stamp the fire out of other people's hearts (because profit? I don't know. Maybe it makes them feel better. Who cares?) Pretend if you must, to survive, but never lose it.

Let's get a little more light-hearted, shall we? We got all sorts of cool outside gear like our "battledome" which also serves as "snow base alpha" or "snow base" with the magic of some tarps and rope. And the disc swing your mom got the two of you was a huge hit. You guys have been having lots of fun on that. We just decorated for Christmas, and you guys did great. I wasn't much help on that, sorry lol. If you want a random memory to tie this to an era of time, we had to saw off the front doorknob when I locked myself out two nights ago! You were very helpful! I quickly replaced it (and others), don't worry! But I am writing at about that time. :)

Let's see? I cleaned your room out recently and unfortunately, not everything could stay. It was a mess, and I wanted you to have... well you know... a clean room. You were crying the other night about an engine you were working on (Discovery build-an-engine type thing if you want to look it up). I was like, "well that's it, another is on the way." Sorry about that buddy, but I couldn't even find all the pieces to the original one, so hopefully you forgive me.

We got lots of cool presents coming your way this year. If I am planning it right, you'll have a new (smart) TV (only 780p, sorry!). You'll have a Switch, and an Xbox One in your room. I don't worry about the so-called "screen time" at all. I was the same way at your age, and the skills I learned just having fun served me well.

I will try to add a little more later, but please don't be mad if I can't! I love you!